What I’ve Learned from Audrey: A Work in Progress

I started writing a post entitled “What I’ve Learned from Audrey” and had so many points listed out, I thought instead that it could be a series, of which this is the second. When I first started writing that post, I’ll be honest, it was just to get one done in the month of May. But it really caused me to start thinking about the past two years, all I’ve learned, and how much I’ve changed through motherhood. And once in a while, a little introspection is probably a good thing.

One of the scariest things about motherhood is the burden that we carry to pass on every lesson that we’ve learned the hard way and the knowledge of the impossibility of the task and the fact that our children will probably have to learn their own lessons the hard way, anyway! But I know in this short time that I do have with my daughter, I can make a (hopefully!) positive impact on her life.

I have to be so careful about what I say, or even how I perceive myself, because whether I want her to or not, Audrey will emulate me, especially in her youth. I want her to be confident, to love Jesus, to be compassionate and forgiving, among so many other things. Because of that, I have to be those things as well.

Even at two years old, I already see trying to be like me. Sometimes it’s wonderful, like when she hugs me tightly and says, “I love you sooo much!” which is exactly what I say to her. Sometimes it’s just in her expressions or silliness. But I know the time is coming when I’ll recognize in her something that’s not good in me.

I guess, in her own way, Audrey is teaching me to live the way I should have been living all along. By pursuing Jesus, by being healthier, by being kind, by prioritizing my time. It’s still a struggle, but now I not only see the results in my own life, but in her’s as well. So this burden that I carry is pushing me to improve myself and be the best mother I can be.

I feel the need to quote Frasier here:

F: “I meant burden in it’s nicest sense!”
F’s dad: “As in, ‘gee, what a lovely burden!’??”

This is indeed a “lovely burden”.

Related:
What I’ve Learned from Audrey: Love

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~ by Amy on March 8, 2013.

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